The time is nothing new, but no one listens. There’s something inside that keeps brewing, the need to be open, the need to keep going. I feel the brush of death beyond my thoughts, and in the end the feeling is still lost. The need to feel alive when each of my lives dies before me. I’ve been told stories, the tales of those who came before me. How each of them was living, the Felidae? I’ve never heard such a word, such a concept. Within the darkness, do I stalk like my ancestors? Or do I live my same life I had once. I remember she mentioned once a story. She mentioned a concept similar, but one I think of now as I walk alone. She asked where fancy was bred, she mentioned the home or head. If my lonely path was without her, would I be what I am now, or would I follow Felidae? Was I always free in the day, as I am in the night? I walk down my lonely road, ‘tis the only one I know now. The wind can graze my fur, the warmth leaves. But that’s not the different feeling I have inside. It feels different, this time is wrong, this time, I know it’s not me. But I still sit here. Where she would look; so sincere to the night, only she knew I was free, and she’d let me go. But I’d come back, because all she did was care, all she did was say I was good. Now I can only look… but maybe I can go back, because I was always a good cat. She told me, she assured me only that. Are you home? Did you miss me? Like this morning, before the night shrouded. Hey… She’s not there… Not again… I was good, wasn’t I? It’s different out here. You’ll be home soon. I’ll be here, still free. Still hidden in darkness. But I’ll be home, I’ll be with you in your room. Tonight, I was free, but even now I can’t be. I’m not supposed to be lost. I’m not free, I’m good. I’m a good cat, she always told me that.
My name is Nathan Geisbert, I am an ROTC Cadet and Student at NMMI. I enjoy writing and I enjoy stories. I hope to one day be commissioned, and see where my career takes me from there. Here at NMMI I enjoy the aspects of how it teaches me where my true potential lies and what I can learn about myself.